Day 100: Beatles to the Rescue

(Note:  I digress from my typical self with this entry...there may be hope yet)

DAY 100:  It’s been brought to my attention that yesterday’s entry might have been a bit too crabby….geez people, I preempted the entire blogsite with I AM A PESSIMIST…it doesn’t mean something is wrong with me on that particular day, I’m just letting my natural inner negative child out for a little fun. And it was cathartic because today I feel better (still have a headache that started on Monday though – my brain is screaming for a vacation) and yes, while I am attempting to be more optimistic in my life, sometimes I like to just wallow in the imperfectness of my life and wonder when I will have everything I want. Truth is….probably never. Which in reality is exactly what I want because who wants a life in which they have everything they want?? Then you lose that drive, that motivation to do something, to strive for something, to work hard to get something…..once you lose that, you become complacent, lazy….you grow a beer belly and scratch your nutsack while watching tv. Optimistic spin: I do not have a nutsack.

There’s always going to be something in my life that isn’t up to par, something that can be better, something else I am reaching for, but I had a “moment” last night while watching American Idol (I know, sad….very sad). They were singing Lennon and McCartney songs (some of the best songs in the universe) and one of them sang Let it Be. I’ve always loved this song….but I don’t think I’ve ever really truly listened to it…it tells you that there are times in your life when there is nothing you can do to fix your problems…that is something that is hard to accept – I always try to fix everything and I want it fixed overnight…but I sat and listened and I realized – it will get fixed, it will get easier, I’ve just got to Let it Be. Now to me Let it Be doesn’t mean do nothing, it means, just do, don’t worry, just do, just be, just move toward your goal, focus on the great things you have and don’t worry about the things that bring you down. Whether that’s what Paul meant or not I don’t know, but I don’t think that matters. Music has always had the ability to lift me up, to make my mood brighter - From each piece of art be it music, literature, a painting, a photo – you take from it what you need – that’s the beauty of true artists sharing themselves – they share their life in an effort to affect yours for the better. What I do on a day to day basis (for a living) doesn’t affect anyone’s life for the better – in fact, I’m fairly certain it does the opposite. Optimistic spin (this is truly a real optimistic spin so prepare yourselves, it looks like Day 100 is a milestone):  It’s only my job – in my life – I’m inspired to make other people’s lives better even if I can’t make my own better. Karma may be a bitch, but so am I and I know that I can be really nice if it’s deserved so maybe Karma can too.

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